While I fully expected this, and even blogged about how I only trusted Obama to throw the gays under his bus. This rapid unfolding of stories about what he is or isn't going to do is kind of crazy. Maybe I have just forgotten what transitions are like and it's been awhile since we've had one with the past two presidents having 8 year terms and the president before that being a vice president, but how is it that people are sure which policies are or are not going to be enacted?
Give the guy a chance to get his people in place and pursue his plans. Remember we want this to be successful and we want be smooth.
However if this is true and that 2010 is the projected roll out time he would be setting himself up for a huge fight in congress as the next congressional election cycle peaks. I really hope that there is enough support to get it through congress and onto his desk WITHOUT caveats or loop holes that would make it a hollow victory. So many gays need some way of proving themselves to their families or society at large and it seems a huge waste to throw away these possible recruits or force them to hide in the closet. I know I would have enlisted if the ban had been lifted. Yes I know several gays that are in the military some out some not but I couldn't do it under the current law. I didn't want to pour my life into a career that could be snatched out from under me by any misstep or fellow soldier. Sadly in 2010 I'd be 35 to old to enlist : (
Friday, November 21, 2008
Wal-mart?
Occasionally things happen and I have no idea why. This is one of them. Mayhaps he needs to spend more time with his family? Pursue new opportunities?
Context, I always watch for signs of weakness, it's an aspect of my nature.
Context, I always watch for signs of weakness, it's an aspect of my nature.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
On Global warming and why I don't care
Sorry I've never really worried about climate change and feel pretty confident in the belief that regardless of the earth warming or cooling we lack the ability to do anything except produce less soot. (Something I do think is important) neither the Kyoto protocol nor the science behind it was anything other than alarmist claptrap in my opinion and the powers that be that beat it's drum have done little besides enrich themselves and promote their own business schemes. Humans should always be thinking about the changing environment and trying to keep things the way they were at any one time is a dangerous ideal considering the earth is a dynamic system not static.
This interesting belief that we should stop making CO2 is just the latest twist. Judges have now ruled that CO2 is a dangerous industrial waste. Did no one mention to him that every breath we take creates CO2, and there fore we are all under the managing auspices of the EPA? that CO2 is less than .0373 percent of the actual gas in the air? yet somehow is suppose to be the main component of Global warming? Or that the more CO2 in the air the better that plants do? No all this is disregarded to flashy headlines even as the air grows colder and colder and the seasons shorter. I don't even try to argue anymore I might mention corollaries to planetary warming throughout the solar system that matched Earth's own, but than I blame that on Bush.
Think people, think....
This interesting belief that we should stop making CO2 is just the latest twist. Judges have now ruled that CO2 is a dangerous industrial waste. Did no one mention to him that every breath we take creates CO2, and there fore we are all under the managing auspices of the EPA? that CO2 is less than .0373 percent of the actual gas in the air? yet somehow is suppose to be the main component of Global warming? Or that the more CO2 in the air the better that plants do? No all this is disregarded to flashy headlines even as the air grows colder and colder and the seasons shorter. I don't even try to argue anymore I might mention corollaries to planetary warming throughout the solar system that matched Earth's own, but than I blame that on Bush.
Think people, think....
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
: / apparently I'm an asshole
Not that I don't already know this, and my close friends know this. However I suppose people I blog with don't know this. Probably because my asshole philosophy tells me to be polite except when talking about things like philosophy. So I can only apologize so much until I get to the point where I remember why I gave up on teaching, and parties and anything other than close friendships. Than I do the same thing I've done since high school, shut my mouth, go home, write my teacher (whose long dead) a letter telling him he was an asshole but right and stick my nose in a book. At least this time I have someone to cuddle with and exchange recipes. Unless he decides I'm an asshole too.
Maybe i should buy christmas presents early just in case...
I suppose for context I should explain, my philosophy only allows me to be an asshole about philosophy because it can kill people. Therefore to express emotion for it is justified. All things that are trivial or transitory must not be worried or fussed over.
Clarification
I suppose, as Jimbo points out, that not changing a habit since high school would indicate a lack of personal growth as well as it should. However that habit came about as a lesson I learned about debate tactics. Basically I come from a family of very confrontational, self righteous, educated blowhards. Though socially awkward (the gay thing, and poor to boot) I was out spoken in certain classes about history and the lessons to gleen from it. Over time I was convinced by a teacher that debate convinced no one of anything and the only successful way of changing the world was through example. So I stopped being verbal and started just helping people and trying to make my section of the world a better place and for the most part that has been wildly successful. However sometimes i still wish words were enough, and the internet can bring out the worst of my old habits. So I apologize, because nothing really matters in the end except how you treat others.
Maybe i should buy christmas presents early just in case...
I suppose for context I should explain, my philosophy only allows me to be an asshole about philosophy because it can kill people. Therefore to express emotion for it is justified. All things that are trivial or transitory must not be worried or fussed over.
Clarification
I suppose, as Jimbo points out, that not changing a habit since high school would indicate a lack of personal growth as well as it should. However that habit came about as a lesson I learned about debate tactics. Basically I come from a family of very confrontational, self righteous, educated blowhards. Though socially awkward (the gay thing, and poor to boot) I was out spoken in certain classes about history and the lessons to gleen from it. Over time I was convinced by a teacher that debate convinced no one of anything and the only successful way of changing the world was through example. So I stopped being verbal and started just helping people and trying to make my section of the world a better place and for the most part that has been wildly successful. However sometimes i still wish words were enough, and the internet can bring out the worst of my old habits. So I apologize, because nothing really matters in the end except how you treat others.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Troubling
I heard a debate recently that troubled me, several people I know that have learned some of the advanced arts of meditation have been trying to munch on a quote they pulled up while delving. "Better for a world to die than the unenlightened learn to read." meaning that if someone reached some form of understanding about the nature of the universe out of order they were most likely to create vicious cycles of destruction in their world that would leave it corrupted, possibly for all time.
Any opinions out there? or is this just prattle from a time of caste systems and extreme knowledge hording?
Addendum
I suppose i should add in context I read CosmoDaddy's blog and was curious about the man Allister that is helping to teach him to meditate and relax.
Any opinions out there? or is this just prattle from a time of caste systems and extreme knowledge hording?
Addendum
I suppose i should add in context I read CosmoDaddy's blog and was curious about the man Allister that is helping to teach him to meditate and relax.
Traveling
Sorry folks I have been traveling quite a bit lately and it's draining me of extra creative energy. Eventually you get to the point where all you can do is sit in a chair and try to regain some density to your self. Still I have been a bit busy, I've seen Sex Drive, Role Model, and RockanRolla. I bought a suit, I am still happily in a relationship, I saw a production fo Rocky Horror Picture show, and I treated my friends to a meal at the Melting Pot which was a lot of fun and very good. I also recieved a book from an old blog friend as well as completing quite a bit of reading on my own.
On the down side my yard has suffered, my dog is restless, my house is unclean, my spirit feels thinned out and my work out schedule has suffered as well.
Still I got to see Tampa, Pittsburgh, Atlanta, Minneapolis, and Wichita. more cities to add to the list which in time i must throw away.
Hope everyone out there is surviving the season change and keeping their spirits up!!
On the down side my yard has suffered, my dog is restless, my house is unclean, my spirit feels thinned out and my work out schedule has suffered as well.
Still I got to see Tampa, Pittsburgh, Atlanta, Minneapolis, and Wichita. more cities to add to the list which in time i must throw away.
Hope everyone out there is surviving the season change and keeping their spirits up!!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
November Meme!
A meme! It's been awhile meme's have been out of vogue for a time. I found this one while reading a new blog. Everyone congratulate him on his recent engagement! Hi Jon!
Where was your default picture taken? On this blog? in Portland, Or at the japanese
gardens
Are you in a relationship, single, complicated, married, or engaged? in a relationship, it started July 3rd
Do you have a flip or slide phone? I prefer flip phones but have an Iphone for now till something better comes along.
Have you ever had your heart broken? Yup usually did it to myself.
Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Yup, sure have....
Who do you hate? Specific folk my lawyer said should never be mentioned in print.
Do you have an iPod? No, an Iphone, however I have a Zune and comparing the two the zune is vastly superior and easier to use. Please people try them!!!
Who was the last person you stayed up late with? Eli : )
Do you have any weird inside jokes? yeah sometimes they span decades of time but typically they revolve around single quote lines or an understanding of non-euclidian geometry.
Do you find piercings attractive? Yes!
What’s the worst abuse you have done to your phone> Not much yet to the iphone it's pretty new. the last one got lost in a downpour
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? probably not, I like aspects of smoking.
Name something you dislike about the day you’re having? I need to sell $8000 more in the next 3 hours
Have you ever kissed in a pool? Yeah, it's nice
Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in right now? No disappointment is usually a personal issue.
Do you ever wonder what your ex or most recent “thing” is up to? Sometimes but not in any serious way.
Who is your best friends boyfriend/girlfriend? Always male...
Whats wrong with you right now? I would like a nap
Are you mean? not typically, however the label is applied often so it must mean something.
Do you talk about your feelings or hide them? I work very hard to talk about them because if not I bury them very deeply
How is your hair? Meh
Latest you stayed up in the past week? 1am
Have you been in a car accident? Yeah two months ago
Do you care if people hate you for no reason? No, I only care if there is a reason.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? No, not really
Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with? No, that was ages ago, i was 14 or 15
What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school? Whatever my mom played on the radio...and ABBA
What is the best thing about your job? The people I work with, and the relationships with the customers.
Where are you going on your next vacation? Not sure maybe England again
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Boyfriend
Are most of the friends in your life new or old? Old at least 4 years or more.
Do you own any furniture from Ikea? No really couldn't be bothered...
If you could be any animal what would you be? Giant Sloth
What state/country are you from? That's a tricky question, several of them...
Where do you see yourself in one month? Hopefully working off the thanksgiving turkey at the gym
Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friend? Yes. It was mostly my fault though.
Do you think you would make a good wife/husband? I'd like to think so
Everything happens for a reason? Mmm in a way I suppose. The question typically contains the answer.
Do you sleep with the TV on? Off!
Do you think you’ll be a good Mother/Father? Maybe if I tried harder than I am now.
Are you high-maintenance? No the opposite
Are you happy with the way life is going? Yes ...since July : )
Where was your default picture taken? On this blog? in Portland, Or at the japanese
gardens
Are you in a relationship, single, complicated, married, or engaged? in a relationship, it started July 3rd
Do you have a flip or slide phone? I prefer flip phones but have an Iphone for now till something better comes along.
Have you ever had your heart broken? Yup usually did it to myself.
Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Yup, sure have....
Who do you hate? Specific folk my lawyer said should never be mentioned in print.
Do you have an iPod? No, an Iphone, however I have a Zune and comparing the two the zune is vastly superior and easier to use. Please people try them!!!
Who was the last person you stayed up late with? Eli : )
Do you have any weird inside jokes? yeah sometimes they span decades of time but typically they revolve around single quote lines or an understanding of non-euclidian geometry.
Do you find piercings attractive? Yes!
What’s the worst abuse you have done to your phone> Not much yet to the iphone it's pretty new. the last one got lost in a downpour
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? probably not, I like aspects of smoking.
Name something you dislike about the day you’re having? I need to sell $8000 more in the next 3 hours
Have you ever kissed in a pool? Yeah, it's nice
Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in right now? No disappointment is usually a personal issue.
Do you ever wonder what your ex or most recent “thing” is up to? Sometimes but not in any serious way.
Who is your best friends boyfriend/girlfriend? Always male...
Whats wrong with you right now? I would like a nap
Are you mean? not typically, however the label is applied often so it must mean something.
Do you talk about your feelings or hide them? I work very hard to talk about them because if not I bury them very deeply
How is your hair? Meh
Latest you stayed up in the past week? 1am
Have you been in a car accident? Yeah two months ago
Do you care if people hate you for no reason? No, I only care if there is a reason.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? No, not really
Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with? No, that was ages ago, i was 14 or 15
What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school? Whatever my mom played on the radio...and ABBA
What is the best thing about your job? The people I work with, and the relationships with the customers.
Where are you going on your next vacation? Not sure maybe England again
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Boyfriend
Are most of the friends in your life new or old? Old at least 4 years or more.
Do you own any furniture from Ikea? No really couldn't be bothered...
If you could be any animal what would you be? Giant Sloth
What state/country are you from? That's a tricky question, several of them...
Where do you see yourself in one month? Hopefully working off the thanksgiving turkey at the gym
Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friend? Yes. It was mostly my fault though.
Do you think you would make a good wife/husband? I'd like to think so
Everything happens for a reason? Mmm in a way I suppose. The question typically contains the answer.
Do you sleep with the TV on? Off!
Do you think you’ll be a good Mother/Father? Maybe if I tried harder than I am now.
Are you high-maintenance? No the opposite
Are you happy with the way life is going? Yes ...since July : )
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Prop 8
Since I think gay marriage is better for gays both as a stabilizing force, for the betterment of all, and as a personal desire; I think folk should do what they can to support this cause. Also I would urge those who believe to make an effort to donate. State law in California requires each donation to be name labeled, saved and recorded, if nothing else and the proposition goes forward, you will and can be known to have made your wishes heard and attach a name to to that desire. In a democracy and a Republic, this is the way and the time to be counted.
Friday, October 24, 2008
dark knitting humor
Jimbo found this in the interwebs. I think it's hilarious and wonder if there is a larger series of these. Like bogs, frogs, etc. That would be cool to see. Can you imagine the instruction sheet for this pattern?
Context, I've been thinking about learning to knit...
Context, I've been thinking about learning to knit...
Monday, October 13, 2008
Palm Beach needs Help!
Wow first Mark Foley tries to bang senate pages while txting like a 16 year old, now his democratic successor has his own sex scandal!
Report: Fla. congressman paid $121K to former staffer after affair
From Yahoo!
ABC News says Rep. Tim Mahoney, D-Fla., had an affair with one of his aides and then agreed to a $121,000 settlement when she threatened to file a sexual harassment lawsuit.
The Politico quotes a Mahoney spokesman saying that the payment didn't include any government or campaign funds.
The relationship between Mahoney and Patricia Allen began while he was running against Foley in 2006, according to the network, which says the affair continued after the Democrat took office and hired Allen to work in his district office.
Mahoney replaced Rep. Mark Foley after the Palm Beach Republican resigned amid allegations that he had exchanged sexually explicit messages with underage male pages on Capitol Hill.
Allen, 50, broke off the relationship and was fired earlier this year, the network says, citing an audiotape that's posted on its website.
She hired a lawyer and the pair eventually agreed on a settlement. "Mahoney, who is married, also promised [her] a $50,000 a year job for two years at the agency that handles his campaign advertising," the network says, citing anonymous staffers.
Report: Fla. congressman paid $121K to former staffer after affair
From Yahoo!
ABC News says Rep. Tim Mahoney, D-Fla., had an affair with one of his aides and then agreed to a $121,000 settlement when she threatened to file a sexual harassment lawsuit.
The Politico quotes a Mahoney spokesman saying that the payment didn't include any government or campaign funds.
The relationship between Mahoney and Patricia Allen began while he was running against Foley in 2006, according to the network, which says the affair continued after the Democrat took office and hired Allen to work in his district office.
Mahoney replaced Rep. Mark Foley after the Palm Beach Republican resigned amid allegations that he had exchanged sexually explicit messages with underage male pages on Capitol Hill.
Allen, 50, broke off the relationship and was fired earlier this year, the network says, citing an audiotape that's posted on its website.
She hired a lawyer and the pair eventually agreed on a settlement. "Mahoney, who is married, also promised [her] a $50,000 a year job for two years at the agency that handles his campaign advertising," the network says, citing anonymous staffers.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Heros and the 3rd Season
You know I've started liking hero's again the writing is getting a little better and the Company is just evil (like the first season). I'm still pissed that Gabriel/Sylar isn't dead though his character is under going some interesting twists he's still too powerful. Plus why are they sacrificing good heroes to him in some misguided attempt to make him even more powerful?? "Hey Satan, you know what would super cool? If you also had the power to make black holes in peoples minds, why don't we give you that one too!"
Oh well I'm kind of digging Claire's mom and hoping that Mohinder turns into something ugly and does the mad scientist lament. "Man was not meant to meddle in God's plan", speech" Than I can giggle and go play with my Sloth/Armadillo half breeds.
Oh well at least I want to watch this season so that's nice.
Oh well I'm kind of digging Claire's mom and hoping that Mohinder turns into something ugly and does the mad scientist lament. "Man was not meant to meddle in God's plan", speech" Than I can giggle and go play with my Sloth/Armadillo half breeds.
Oh well at least I want to watch this season so that's nice.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
Debates!!
My god I just can't wait to hear the "debate" tonight. Here's a quick rundown
Mac -I am true change! I was a POW
Obo- I am change I am half black
Mac- One day I will rewrite every law that evil greedy men ever wrote!
OBO- I say we have a dialog about everything and I will give everyone money and a kitten or a puppy. Your choice..
Mac- People hate me because I pissed off both parties whilst grandstanding, that's a good thing!
OBO_ I carefully made no hard choices in all my jobs so that no one could ever say I stood for, or against something. Did I mention that I'm the only democrat that can get elected because I haven't actually done anything for people to hate?? Cause my opponents all have.
Mac_ My running mate has boobs! Your running mate IS a boob. heh I said boob
OBO- I took a two week trip around the world and ignored my family in africa because they are kind of creepy. That qualifies me for ANYTHING.
Mac- I Was A POW!!!
OBO_ I organized a community but that totally sucked so I left and it's still a piece of shite
NEW REPORTERS- O my god this is the most important conversation ever. In case you couldn't understand this we will now break this into 2 second sound bites and explain why we support OBO because of BDS
and that my friends is what we are going to hear tonight.
Mac -I am true change! I was a POW
Obo- I am change I am half black
Mac- One day I will rewrite every law that evil greedy men ever wrote!
OBO- I say we have a dialog about everything and I will give everyone money and a kitten or a puppy. Your choice..
Mac- People hate me because I pissed off both parties whilst grandstanding, that's a good thing!
OBO_ I carefully made no hard choices in all my jobs so that no one could ever say I stood for, or against something. Did I mention that I'm the only democrat that can get elected because I haven't actually done anything for people to hate?? Cause my opponents all have.
Mac_ My running mate has boobs! Your running mate IS a boob. heh I said boob
OBO- I took a two week trip around the world and ignored my family in africa because they are kind of creepy. That qualifies me for ANYTHING.
Mac- I Was A POW!!!
OBO_ I organized a community but that totally sucked so I left and it's still a piece of shite
NEW REPORTERS- O my god this is the most important conversation ever. In case you couldn't understand this we will now break this into 2 second sound bites and explain why we support OBO because of BDS
and that my friends is what we are going to hear tonight.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Burning body not suspicious
As much as I liked Scotland i'm a bit worried about visiting again. Apparently finding a smoldering corpse on a golf course is not that, "suspicious". Shouldn't this be a bit weird? Maybe not that normal? Maybe the high level of drinking makes scottish blood flammable? Maybe Dr. Who type aliens are igniting people and leaving burnt corpses?
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Reasons to Vote in November
I'm still not sure if this is a positive or a negative but all I know is that if you can't trust cyborgs to run your government who can you trust?
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Common loves
Despite E's dislike of video games and most TV, we both agree on many things. One Active Duty Porn is hot, two sushi is good, three, Suede, must die.
Monday, August 4, 2008
tax dollars at work
In Ancient times dark powers worked with eldritch rhymes to gather and control the deeper powers of the universe. Long ago the elder races banded together to destroy this perverted race, and wiped them out of known history. However recent spy networks have detected activities in some of their ancient holdings, though all spies went mad from the evil rhythms, they did manage to transmit this single file.
CERN Rap from Will Barras on Vimeo.
CERN Rap from Will Barras on Vimeo.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
"The Boy" Here after refered to as "E"
Well for those of you that are curious let me fill you all in on my amazing new boyfriend. We met July Third, dated for two weeks and than decided that the process of dating was over and we actually liked each other and were compatible enough to risk referring to ourselves as boyfriends. It's been a seriously long time for me, (crap I'm going to have to start updated some of these "abouts") and despite my fumblings I'm getting most of the right words out where they need to be. "E" is a bright spot in my head, he's super smart, seriously cute, dirty, and even manages to motivate me. But most importantly he can make me laugh, seriously bust a gut and feel alive. The fact that he cooks and has green eyes continue to make me suspicious that I will wake up and the majority of this will be a dream.
There are some issues in location he lives a fair distance away and is attending university, his career arc will gradually take him from the area in an ever expanding circuit of travel. The good aspects of that are I love to travel, and getting out of oklahoma wouldn't be the worst thing that ever happened to me.
We are of course still working on communication, sometimes I'm to literal or pig headed, and sometimes he's confusingly passive in discussions when he doesn't want to openly disagree. But as with most people I try to see the whole as features that i have to learn to tune my ear to.
Well that's as deep as I feel getting on the a blog at the moment and I'm sure He'll come up in future posts, we are planning some trips and drives and I'm sure they'll be pictures galore if things continue to work out.
Thanks for the advice from the previous comments Chwjohns, I did take it to heart after over analyzing the situation far too long. Good luck with your own project!
Thanks to the rest!
There are some issues in location he lives a fair distance away and is attending university, his career arc will gradually take him from the area in an ever expanding circuit of travel. The good aspects of that are I love to travel, and getting out of oklahoma wouldn't be the worst thing that ever happened to me.
We are of course still working on communication, sometimes I'm to literal or pig headed, and sometimes he's confusingly passive in discussions when he doesn't want to openly disagree. But as with most people I try to see the whole as features that i have to learn to tune my ear to.
Well that's as deep as I feel getting on the a blog at the moment and I'm sure He'll come up in future posts, we are planning some trips and drives and I'm sure they'll be pictures galore if things continue to work out.
Thanks for the advice from the previous comments Chwjohns, I did take it to heart after over analyzing the situation far too long. Good luck with your own project!
Thanks to the rest!
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